It's really been awhile since my last post, I wasn't planning to write again but I read some of the comments in here hoping that I am okay and found someone new already (thanks for leaving a comment by the way). Well, if you have not read my break-up story in this blog, it was just the normal 5-year relationship break up story. Young sweethearts in love or commonly known as "First Love" for both of us, we thought that love would last forever but sadly it was not a happy-ever after, boy meets another girl - end of story. See, there really wasn't anything extraordinary about our love story, I bet you heard the same story million times. But believe me, if you experience it first hand not just in the movies or your friend's break-up, it will surely try to kill you piece by piece. It's no joke! How I cope up with it was through this blog, I wrote all my feelings and searched sites on how to fix a broken heart, I was so desperate - that was 3 years ago.
Moving forward now, as I try to recall and read through my blogs, what seemed before as a tragedy now had opened the doors of opportunities. I won't deny that I was hurt, I really can't explain how overwhelming the pain was but it's really up to you if you want to stay that way, I chose to stand up and took it as an opportunity to become a better me.
I lost a part me but I was able to re-gain the lost me. Being single is really not that bad after all, I was able to do things I want to do which I couldn't if I was in my previous relationship due to some trust issues. I joined different organizations - SFC (Singles For Christ) to be closer to God; Mountaineering Group to explore the mountains; IMG (International Marketing Group) to learn more about how to achieve financial security; it was also the time I got promoted in my job and I got to travel different places both local and international. Isn't it amazing? So if you ask how am I doing? I'm doing great! I believe God has a purpose, as they say when one door closed another door or rather doors open, you just got to have the strength to open it.
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| Trip to Netherlands |
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| SFC Conference |
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| Climbing Mt. Naopa |
Now for the other tricky question, do I have someone new? The answer is --- NO! I know the first thing that would pop up in your mind is that I have not moved on yet, but I could say I moved on coz just this July our path finally crossed though I had an advantage because I know he will be there. Just to cut the story short - we met a fast food chain where they planned to have lunch, I know because I was going to meet one of his friend for an appointment. Though at first when I saw him my heart was pounding in my chest but later on it calmed down and I was about to chicken out but thought what the heck it's now or never so I went over their table and said "hi there" and he was 'surprised'. While I was in their table I just chat along with his friends and he was silent, there was no more anger or pain. Alleluia! It was just like having an old friend except he was not talking, I didn't stayed long when I left I even said "Hi-5!" a sign of friendship and affirmation to forget about the past, it was a great feeling.
I had few suitors and flings but nothing serious, I honestly don't know if I'm afraid to fall in love again aside from they are not really the one I'm looking for. Though sometimes I do long for someone to lean on and have a travel buddy, I'm more cautious now or maybe I'm not just ready yet. I've came across a book on how to find your one true love and it says "To find Mr. Right, you must become Ms. Right first".
If you're going through a bad break up today, I assure you that you'll get through it somehow IF you chose to. Yours might be worse than mine but I know how excruciating the pain is, first step is you need to DECIDE what you really want to do in your life - are you going to lock yourself for the rest of your life or open the other window to see the light of other side? It would take time, yes indeed, but surely time alone won't heal you, you need to act on it. And most importantly, PRAY, ask God for courage and strength to stand up and face the world again; seek for guidance and ask Him to lead you to the right path. Everyday is a struggle but at the end of the day you can say 'All is well after all!'.
