No More One More Chance

I honestly believed at first about one more chance, well maybe partly because I loved that movie but also because I think there's always room for another chance. Then as days passed by and things are getting much clearer now, I realized that not everything deserves another chance and one of that is - US. I honestly don't know why he keeps on mentioning about the future, maybe I'm just hallucinating and all - he said maybe one day he'll be back not mentioning anything though. I know he will I mean we have lots of common friends but I don't think if ever that will come, we could be good as new. As friends there's a possibility but that's that and nothing more and I would like to stick to that decision because of the following:

1. A DEEP SCAR. I was hurt and deeply wounded, though I had already forgiven him and the pain might be gone already soon but the scar or mark that he had caused will never be erased. It will be forever there until the day I die, like the quote "Love is like a broken glass; sometimes it's easier to leave it alone than to hurt yourself trying to fix it"

2. FEAR. The fear of what our future will look like after all this, if there is a future that is. I thought before that the song "Somewhere Down the Road" would might be applicable to us but the future seems too blurry now unlike before and I'm afraid to take that risk anymore. I just saw the film "Letters to Juliet" since there were two love stories involved there I don't know which one I would like be in. First, those old couple who met 50 years after believing that TRUE LOVE waits;or Second, the young couple which just took less than a week to have found that love? For now, I would dismiss that 50 years - True Love waits and would just concentrate what I have now.

3. NO MORE TRUST. One of the very important thing in a relationship aside from LOVE is TRUST, and it was completely shattered and broken into pieces. And it would really take I guess a lifetime to have it completely whole again or it might be whole but the cracks are still there. It will never be the same. He changed and I changed, everything about us changed.

4. GOD'S PLAN. I believe we're not just meant for each other and God had planned this for me so I'll be able to see the real HIM, he's no longer the boy I used to know. And there's someone out there for me, just waiting and it will come at the right time.