I thought before that saying anything negative about anyone especially the person who had hurt you is an easy task, but now as I'm trying to do Step 2 in the Healing Process, I find it so hard to do. We'll I can think of a lot of negatives about my ex, but then as I thought more about it a positive counterpart just pops out of nowhere. Like for example, my ex was never a romantic type which really gets me disappointed sometimes but then I know he is always spending his last dime on me, sometimes he can't even save a little from his allowance. Am I the only one experiencing this one? Is my brain really flipped already? So anyway, I had to write down immediately the negatives that I can think of before the counterparts intrudes my thinking, so here are some of the following I won't post everything because some are too personal.
THE X-SIDE OF MY EX
THE X-SIDE OF MY EX
1. JEALOUS GUY. He gets jealous on every guy I met and even those that I really don't know. If a guy whether I know him or not sits besides me, then good luck to me I owe him an explanation for that. This is the reason why I don't have so many boy --- friends, because they already know that there's a big wall surrounding me with a sign 'No Entry'. Seriously, he even gets jealous with his friends, not to mention mine.
2. OVER-PROTECTIVE. We'll most girls like the feeling of being protected always, but not to the extreme that you can't do what you like to do anymore. And that's what I hate about him also, I can't or shouldn't do this and that because I'm a girl and blaah blaah blaah, and other lame and stupid excuse.
3. NOT THE ROMANTIC TYPE. Ever since I was young, I love to read books especially about love, teenage romance and all that stuffs. So I had imagined my love story patterned in that way, the guy giving flowers and chocolates and lots of surprises. My ex did surprise me indeed, he surprised me with nothing - no flowers, no chocolates, no mushy love letters and all that stuffs that I read in the books. Damn him and the books.
4. A DRUNK. I understand guys by nature drinks (beer) and that you cannot force it out of their system, but no matter how hard I try to understand I just cannot because I just don't. And see ----> he kissed a girl because he was drunk and I didn't even know that until he confessed, how many girls did he kissed already, he got drunk many times. Grrrrrrrh!
5. CHEATER! LIAR! BASTARD! No explanation needed.
PERSONAL ADVANTAGES
1. NO CHAPERON NEEDED. Now I can go out with my friends anytime and anywhere. Before more often than not he always has to be wherever I go especially when it is a night activity or party. And if he isn't with me, my phone is always ringing, he is such a KJ 'Kill Joy'.
2. NO WORRIES. His just so unfair, when I go out he's there with me, but when he goes out he doesn't want me to come because of so many lame excuses that ruins my day. Even though I tell him that I don't care, but I do care, I get angry and sometimes get worried especially if he doesn't text if his at home already. So now I don't have to worry about anyone, or get pissed off because 'somebody' didn't call or text.
3. MY TIME. Ever since our relationship started everything was always about US and seldom was it about ME. So now I have time to myself, a time to do the things I have wanted but never got the chance because of US like blogging, exercising, etc.
4. MORE SAVINGS. Our agreement from the start is that we take turns on who's going to pay for this and that. I don't like that idea that the guys should be the one to pay every time, sharing is good. So now since I have no boyfriend, I can save that money that is to be used for US to be only for ME now.
5. MEET THE ONE. Maybe we are really not meant for each other, maybe this is just the road that will lead me to my ideal man; the romantic, adventurous and loving man of my dreams.
PERSONAL ADVANTAGES
1. NO CHAPERON NEEDED. Now I can go out with my friends anytime and anywhere. Before more often than not he always has to be wherever I go especially when it is a night activity or party. And if he isn't with me, my phone is always ringing, he is such a KJ 'Kill Joy'.
2. NO WORRIES. His just so unfair, when I go out he's there with me, but when he goes out he doesn't want me to come because of so many lame excuses that ruins my day. Even though I tell him that I don't care, but I do care, I get angry and sometimes get worried especially if he doesn't text if his at home already. So now I don't have to worry about anyone, or get pissed off because 'somebody' didn't call or text.
3. MY TIME. Ever since our relationship started everything was always about US and seldom was it about ME. So now I have time to myself, a time to do the things I have wanted but never got the chance because of US like blogging, exercising, etc.
4. MORE SAVINGS. Our agreement from the start is that we take turns on who's going to pay for this and that. I don't like that idea that the guys should be the one to pay every time, sharing is good. So now since I have no boyfriend, I can save that money that is to be used for US to be only for ME now.
5. MEET THE ONE. Maybe we are really not meant for each other, maybe this is just the road that will lead me to my ideal man; the romantic, adventurous and loving man of my dreams.
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